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Healing war’s scars: New VA rules help local veterans with PTSD find relief

Healing war’s scars: New VA rules help local veterans with PTSD find relief

By Kate Nash | The New Mexican

It took one New Mexico military veteran three decades before he sought help for his nighttime “dragons.” After that, it took about a year to get benefits from the government.

Another veteran, who battled depression after serving in the Marines during the Vietnam War and later in the Army, only sought help after retiring in 2001. It took about four years for him to receive benefits, including aid for a major depressive disorder.

Both men note they ultimately were able to get help from government agencies and veterans groups, and describe the system to help veterans with post-traumatic stress disorder and related problems as one that is improving. Others, however, say the system could do much more to help those who have served our country.

“The (Department of Veterans Affairs) has gotten good at treating battle wounds and injured soldiers,” said John Garcia, a Vietnam veteran and former head of the New Mexico Department of Veterans’ Services. “But these injuries reach farther. They are injuries of the soul.”

To help treat those wounds, the VA more than a year ago adopted new rules aimed at quicker diagnoses and treatment for soldiers returning from war.

Those rules allow a veteran’s testimony about traumatic events to be accepted instead of tedious paperwork and record searching. However, it’s still unclear whether the rules are working, and whether more vets are seeking help because of the changes.

The regional VA office doesn’t keep track of the number of PTSD claims in the state. National figures provided by the office show 437,310 veterans were granted compensation based on PTSD claims in 2010, up from 133,745 in 2000.

At the Albuquerque VA hospital, there are no exact local numbers, either. Officials there say there are 174,324 veterans in the state, and the estimated number of veterans with PTSD ranges from 15 percent to 25 percent.

As for the time it takes for PTSD to be diagnosed at the hospital, that has decreased to 14 days or fewer, one official said, down from the approximate 30 days it took five years ago.

No matter the statistics, recent interviews with local veterans show there is help widely available — and it is coming in new and innovative forms.

Increasingly prevalent problem

Diane P. Castillo, a staff psychologist at the Albuquerque VA hospital and coordinator of the Women’s Trauma Clinic there, started a PTSD program for men in 1987.

Since then, she has seen an increase in the number of veterans seeking help for PTSD — and she expects it to continue increasing.

“The lethality of wars has gotten less and less, so we’ve having more soldiers survive combat,” she said. “That’s a good thing. But the flip side is, we are going to see more PTSD.”

Some figures say about 30 percent of those returning from Iraq and Afghanistan suffer haunting memories of trauma — a number that could rise in coming years as more troops come back to the United States from places such as Afghanistan and Iraq.

Under past VA rules, veterans had to go through a lengthy process to show evidence they experienced on-the-job “stressors,” or events that later caused them stress or anxiety. That process used to involve adjudicators who typically were required to collect extensive records to corroborate whether a veteran really experienced what he or she claimed.

With the new rules, soldiers’ testimonies can be used to establish that they were exposed to incidents on duty that caused stress. At the same time, a Department of Veterans Affairs doctor has to diagnose those symptoms as PTSD.

U.S. Rep. Ben Ray Luján, D-N.M., said in statement, “These new rules are an important first step to help veterans get the benefits they have earned and deserve, but more must be done. We have seen cases in which the rules appear to have made the process easier for some veterans; however, many continue to face unacceptable delays and other challenges. We must keep working hard to ensure the brave men and women who served our nation get the care they need.”

About half the veterans that the Northern New Mexico congressman’s office hears from each month have a PTSD-related issue, a spokesman said.

Therapies old and new

Vietnam-era veteran and 1972 Santa Fe High School graduate Jerry L. Martinez didn’t know he was battling depression after his time in the Marine Corps, which included being stationed off Vietnam in 1974.

But little by little, the things he saw and heard about — including the 1981 state penitentiary riot in Santa Fe that occurred while he was working in law enforcement — began to accumulate.

“I did have the experience of being friends with some of the ones that had been in Vietnam and the war, and they talked to us and told us about some of the things they went through, and some of the things they went through were really hard to accept,” he said in a recent interview.

Later, as a deputy, he went through a harrowing shootout with prison escapees, then the riot. A deputy close to him was shot and killed while responding to a domestic-violence call.

“A lot of these things triggered (memories of) some of the things my friends had gone through,” he said. “It just started creating problems with me.”

Martinez, who spent 26 years in the military, went to work as a transport officer after retiring from the Army in 2001.

“That’s when I started feeling these problems with depression and carrying a weapon. Something was wrong, something was going wrong. … I finally said, ‘I better just stay out of that line of work because something may happen.’ ”

Soon after, he retired and pursued disability benefits. He already had been diagnosed with diabetes, herniated disks and hearing loss from his time in the service. He then got the diagnosis of major depressive disorder.

To deal with the disorder, Martinez attends counseling once a week at the Santa Fe Veterans Center. The group of men talk about anything and everything.

“What really comes out of those meetings is, one looks at the other and says, ‘I thought I was the only one having those problems, but I’m not,’ ” Martinez said.

Martinez and his wife, Teresa, also recently attended a retreat in Angel Fire for couples with at least one person suffering from PTSD. Such events are part of a new view of PTSD as something that affects more than just the veteran.

“It allowed us to open up to each other,” Teresa Martinez said. “There were things that I didn’t know that were hurting him. Now I know what he was missing, and I can understand what he is going through.”

The Martinezes will be among as many as 150 couples who this year attend the retreats, which are paid for by federal stimulus money. Roughly 25 spots remain for the weeklong programs, which continue through September and feature yoga, acupuncture and other alternative therapies.

Aside from attending counseling, Martinez, 57, keeps busy with something that helps him cope just as much: Color Guard and Honor Guard activities, as well as flag ceremonies.

When he visits local schools, he likes to read a poem about the importance of respecting the flag, and he talks to children about the military. He also gets geared up for events such as Memorial Day ceremonies and spent last Friday placing flags on graves at the Santa Fe National Cemetery.

Honoring those who died, he said, helps fill an emptiness he feels.

During a recent interview, Martinez showed off an album of photos taken during a ceremony for fallen soldiers he helped with at Arlington National Cemetery. It is one of the few times in the interview when he really smiled.

Another veteran, Garcia, the former state Veterans’ Services secretary who spent time in Vietnam in the Army, uses massage therapy to help him unwind.

After Garcia got home from a year in Vietnam in 1970, he had a hard time adjusting, he said.

“It was definitely a transition for me,” he said. “I went over there 18 and came back feeling 40. My world had changed, and it took me a while to catch up with it,” he said. “My family expected me to be the same kid I was. I felt like they had changed, and they felt like I had changed.”

Garcia went through a rough adjustment time, and although he initially tried to connect with the VA system right when he returned, he got frustrated with long waits and shied away. It would be 30 years before he got linked with the VA through a veteran-service officer.

“My wife got tired of me waking up at 2 a.m. and chasing those dragons with me, so I finally went,” he said. “She said, ‘If you’re not going to do it for yourself, do it for us.’ ”

It wasn’t until a year later, when Garcia received word that his benefits had been approved, that he felt like someone recognized what he had done. “I had to pull over and break down that they finally recognized my service,” he recalled. “I didn’t care about the benefits and services. What really mattered was the VA … validated me, said that my service meant something.”

Some local veterans are getting therapy from four-legged creatures.

At an arena at the Santa Fe Rodeo Grounds on a recent weekday, volunteers with Listening Horse Therapeutic Riding and the NARHA Horses for Heroes program worked with two veterans.

The vets spent an hour and a half riding around the Northern New Mexico Horseman’s Association arena, learning how to trot, steer and communicate with their 1,200-pound partners. They also learned how to groom and equip the horses.

But the ride is more than that. At the same time, the men are learning skills that will help them sort through their feelings, communicate their emotions, and connect with others.

“There’s a self-esteem that comes with learning a new skill and building your confidence, which naturally fits into dealing with other people,” said Flannery Davis, who runs the program with her partner, Gus Jolley.

Horses live in the present, Davis said, and are able to instantly tune themselves in to human emotion.

“You can always see what you are feeling in the horses,” she said. “If they are telling you that you are angry, you are angry.”

For many of the program’s participants, the time with horses, which the group provides for free, also is a time to relax.

“With PTSD, you are used to your emotions being numb,” Davis said. “You don’t recognize your emotions when they come up. In working with horses, you realize it’s OK to let yourself feel again.”

For Navy veteran Gary Self, the eight-week program he was completing recently helped him connect with the horses, including Sugar, whom he rode for most of his time in the program.

“It’s a bonding thing,” he said. For him, that connection started immediately, and Self, like others who have completed the program, said he would come back and volunteer to help others.

Castillo said those kinds of therapies are complementary to more traditional forms of therapy she uses at the clinic.

At her office, Castillo incorporates help known as exposure therapy, which has vets go through their trauma repeatedly as a way to get over it. She also uses cognitive therapy, which helps veterans change the way they think about what happened.

Something else that is helping veterans is the fact that society is more supportive of them, Castillo said.

“I think the one thing we have learned as a society is to not blame the vet, the soldier,” she said. “They know more than anybody how bad the war is.”

And Garcia, who is headed off to start a new job with the VA in Washington, D.C., said he’s glad to see so many treatment options available for today’s veterans — something veterans of his era didn’t see when they returned from the war.

“They are not like draftees, they are volunteers,” he said of current soldiers. “We have an obligation to them to make sure when they leave, they come out as strong as they went in.

“Have we done enough in the past? No, we haven’t, but we are starting to.”

Published June 01, 2011.

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Santa Fe 400th: Sense of duty spans generations

Santa Fe 400th: Sense of duty spans generations

Like many in Santa Fe, the Chavez family has deep ties to the military

Kate Nash | The New Mexican

Alexine Chavez was a senior in high school when she passed by a military recruiting center on St. Michael’s Drive.

With a spur-of-the-moment feeling egging her on, she did a U-turn and headed into the center.

Inside, the Air Force recruiter persuaded her to join, and she was hooked, joining not once but twice since then.

More than nine years later, Chavez, 27, has seen two tours in Iraq, plus deployments to Saudi Arabia and Japan, and countless weekends of training.

While her decision to join seemed spontaneous, she had a grandfather who served in World War II, a father who put in 20 years with the New Mexico National Guard, and an uncle who served in Vietnam — the service might just be in her blood.

Her contribution to the country, and the contributions of her father, Ray, and grandfather, Refugio, who joined her in a recent interview, represent the city’s military history dating back more than 60 years. In a broader sense, they also embody the men and women of the City Different who have served since Santa Fe was founded 400 years ago.

The military history of Santa Fe — capital of a state with more than 200,000 veterans — includes tales of the Pueblo Revolt, a role in the Civil War, sons lost in Korea. It is flush with stories of those who survived a death march in the Philippines, of Buffalo Soldiers and Rough Riders, of those who went to Afghanistan and of a strong anti-war movement. It includes the yarn of Pancho Villa and the creation of the atomic bomb.

And it includes the Chavezes.

Each signed up for the military in a different era and for distinct reasons.

Each had unique experiences.

And each puts a face on Santa Fe’s sacrifice.

Refugio: POW in WWII

Refugio Chavez was 20 and living in Santa Fe in 1940, without a stable job in sight. With an eighth-grade education, he had been working construction when he could.

The Army seemed like his best option, paying $30 a month. He enlisted and was shipped off to World War II with the 8th Cavalry Division, against his father’s better judgment. To sign up for the training, he needed parental permission.

“My dad signed for me,” said Chavez, who recently turned 90. “He didn’t want to do it, but finally he signed.”

In France, Chavez was captured and taken to Germany. He was held for 18 months. For meals, he got two bowls of cabbage soup a day. He did all right, he said, even without meat or bread, but worried about his family in New Mexico.

“My mom didn’t know where I was. At first they got a telegram that I was missing in action, then that I was a POW.”

When he was liberated in 1945, he said, he had never been so happy to see American soldiers. He then was able to call his parents back home to give them the news. It would be several more months before he would see them in person, given the logistics of returning to Santa Fe after being discharged.

So much has changed since that war, Chavez said, including the number of troops who come back alive. Some 2,263 New Mexicans died in World War II.

“Thanks to God I came back,” he said. “I didn’t think I was going to make it. They didn’t kill me. I was lucky.”

Lucky to be alive, Chavez said, and grateful to be back home.

The first thing he did was eat a steak, he recalled, then rest, then look for work. One of more than 50,000 New Mexicans who served in World War II, he ended up as a mechanic working the bowling machines at the now-closed Coronado Lanes.

Later, when his son Pete went to fight in Vietnam, Refugio Chavez would watch television news every night for word of the U.S. troops.

By coincidence, Refugio one night saw Pete in the background of a scene a reporter had filed from Cambodia.

Although Pete had been sending letters to his family with some information on his time in the service, there was such a lag time, and Refugio often wondered whether his son was OK.

He was.

“By 10 o’clock, the whole neighborhood knew about it,” said Ray Chavez, Pete’s brother, as he gestured up and down the Third Street neighborhood where Refugio still lives.

These days, Pete doesn’t like to talk about Vietnam. And Refugio doesn’t watch the news as much.

Ray: Better off in Guard

Ray Chavez thought about the Army after his brother Pete joined. But Pete made him change his mind on a trip back home six months before he was discharged.

“He said, ‘You don’t want to join the Army. If you can join the National Guard, you’d be better off,’ ” Ray Chavez said.

So in March of 1971, Ray joined the Guard, where his brother also ended up when he came back from Vietnam.

Ray put in six years, finished his advanced individual training with the supply section for a heavy-equipment maintenance company, then got out in 1977 with no intention of going back.

Again, Pete made him change his mind.

“He said, ‘Go back and finish your 20 years,’ ” Ray Chavez said.

He was 40 at the time. The physical training was the hardest part.

But Chavez, now 57, was glad to see some of the old friends he’d had in the Guard, something he had missed.

At work, he played a key role in keeping the military equipment going, ordering all the mechanical parts needed. He trained with Army members and traveled to Germany, Italy and Panama for annual training.

One of the highlights for him was running a whole supply unit during a drill weekend in Camp Dodge, Iowa.

“I was kind of thrown in there,” he recalled. “Usually, when you go for drill weekend, you kind of help them out.”

Then deployments to Iraq started coming for his unit, something in which Ray Chavez wasn’t interested.

He switched to the 93rd troop command, a nondeployable unit that supports those who are sent overseas.

“Deployments for me are good for a single person,” said Ray Chavez, who has two daughters and a son.

He retired in 2002 and now works in the Human Resources Department at the National Guard.

Military life has changed for him, too, now that his daughter Alexine is in the Air Force — something he said he at first discouraged.

“I told her to join the Guard and get a taste before you decide to join,” he said. “I didn’t feel comfortable with her doing it … being all the deployments, I figured she doesn’t belong being exposed to that kind of danger. She surprises me, though.”

To get through Alexine’s deployments, Ray Chavez looked forward to hearing from her, just as he once had waited for news from his brother, and just as his grandparents waited for news of his father.

“I just prayed and thought, ‘Let God take care of her,’ ” Ray Chavez said.

Along with e-mail instead of telegrams, and with cross-oceanic flights instead of boat rides, attitudes toward military members have also changed, he said — even in a town that’s known for its active peace movement and dotted typically with anti-war signs.

“I think people in general have made an extra effort to recognize our work. When my brother came back from Vietnam, they didn’t have anything … anybody waiting. I think the recognition has changed.”

Alexine: 9/11 marked start

Alexine Chavez knew she didn’t want to go to college, so as her time at Capital High was ending in 2001, she was searching for her path.

The stop at the recruiting center set her on her way. At first, her parents didn’t know anything about her plans.

“Finally I told them I am going to join, and they said, ‘What?’ My mom was really … she didn’t want me to go.”

But go she did. And she became a member of the U.S. Air Force Security Forces, which provide base security.

Basic training was supposed to start Sept. 11 of that year. Because of the terrorist attacks of that day, however, the training started a week late.

Still, Chavez went. During her nine years in the Air Force, including six on active duty and three in the reserves, she went twice to Iraq, and to Japan and Saudi Arabia.

If her father and grandfather hadn’t been in the service, she might not have known so much about being deployed, about serving a country from thousands of miles away.

“It actually did help. I don’t think I would have known anything about the military,” she said.

She got out of active duty in early 2007, after her first tour in Iraq, but that didn’t last. Within a few months, she joined the reserves.

“I wasn’t going to go back into the military. I decided to be a civilian, but I missed it a lot and I felt like I need to be in the military,” Chavez said.

“I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I was kind of lost, I guess. I needed to get into the reserves to transition to civilian life again.”

By 2008, she was back in Iraq for six months. She kept in touch with Santa Fe through the Internet. Her family kept her linked in to life back home.

“I missed the food bad,” she said.

At training in Missouri, Chavez’s mom, Santanita, sent her green chile. It wasn’t the same.

“It was in baggies and on dry ice.”

To Alexine Chavez, one of a growing number of women in the Air Force, life in the military is nothing new.

To her grandfather, it’s a bit of novelty. The women of his generation played a different role in the military.

“They were nurses,” he said.

At the ready for 400 years

The story of the Chavez family is similar to that of many in the Guard, said the New Mexico National Guard adjutant general, Maj. Gen. Kenny Montoya.

“Almost all of us have a father and grandfather who served,” he said. “Traditionally in New Mexico, I think it’s part of our culture that we have to serve.”

Working for the Guard is also increasingly popular, Montoya said. Its numbers have increased for the past few years, helping the Guard meet its recruiting goals. It has a membership this year of 4,050 and will be able to add several new units of about 180 people, including a military police company, a special operations unit and an intelligence unit, Montoya said.

Many of the new recruits sign up straight out of high school, Montoya said, a shift in recent years from men and women on active duty or other walks of life who joined the Guard in their older years.

“Younger people are seeing the Guard is doing everything the active-duty (soldiers) do and more at home. If people in Chama are snowed in and elderly people need their medicine, the Guard is going to get it.”

The seeming ease with which Montoya is signing up new members in New Mexico appears to track with national recruiting numbers.

According to information published by the Department of Defense for the 2010 fiscal year, both the Air and Army Guards had successful recruiting missions.

The Air National Guard signed up 6,983 people, 109 percent of its goal of 6,430, and 57,204 people joined the Army National Guard, 95 percent of its goal of 60,000, the Defense Department reported.

The Army Guard had 362,015 members, while the Air Guard had 107,676. Both branches had retention rates above 90 percent.

Montoya said the National Guard system traces its roots back to New Mexico and to Don Juan de Oñate, who, when he came through the state in 1598, left some of his troops behind, telling them they were no longer on active duty.

It was also the Guard that played a key role when Villa crossed into New Mexico.

“He raided the regular Army, but it was the Guard who was called out to track him down,” Montoya said.

While more might be signing up with the Guard, and while the work is rewarding for many, it comes with a somber task. The men and women of the Guard this year alone have buried 600 veterans, many who served in World War II.

“Our World War II vets are passing away in large numbers, and that’s really hard seeing great New Mexicans that you looked up to your whole life,” Montoya said. “That generation is going away.”

Published Nov. 06, 2010.

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Rookie in a rush

Bill Rehm of Albuquerque was appointed to the House just last week. Now, in the first days of the session, he’s scurrying to learn the basics.

By Kate Nash
Tribune Reporter

SANTA FE – The crash happened in the late 1980s, along a 25-mph stretch of Isleta Boulevard in Albuquerque’s South Valley.

High on heroin, the driver plowed straight through a turn in the road, killing a man changing a tire in a parking lot.

Bill Rehm wasn’t there the moment it happened but can recite details of the case because he studied and recreated it as a Bernalillo County sheriff’s deputy.

Of the hundreds of crashes he has studied, that one sticks out, in part because the driver told authorities he had shot up just 15 minutes earlier.

State law didn’t allow the Sheriff’s Department to charge the driver with drug possession, something Rehm, in his first week as a Republican state representative from Albuquerque’s Northeast Heights, is determined to change.

“That was a real injustice,” he said. “That family lost their father.”

The Bernalillo County Commission appointed Rehm to the post last week to fill the vacancy left by Greg Payne, who resigned earlier this month to become Albuquerque’s transit director.

The House has freshmen every other year, but Rehm is in a class by himself this year because of the timing of Payne’s resignation.

Rehm has spent the session’s first days getting acquainted with legislator-speak, trying to make sense of floor debates and committee schedules, and finding his way around the Roundhouse. And around.

His first and only measure so far would allow the state to charge drivers who have drugs in their system, but not physically on them or in their car, with possession.

“If we test you after any kind of accident and you come up positive, we’d charge you with possession,” he said.

On Wednesday, the first full day of the session, Rehm spent much of the morning listening to a presentation on the planned spaceport while drafting his bill.

To get from the basement level, where the spaceport was being debated, Rehm took the public elevator, not the private one expressly for lawmakers like him.

And after walking past her office the first time, Rehm enlisted the help of Jennie Lusk, one of several professionals on staff in the Roundhouse to help lawmakers draft bills.

Rehm worked with Lusk for about 20 minutes, fine-tuning the wording and mulling whether the bill should say “a drug that has been metabolized” or “a metabolized drug.”

Lusk told Rehm that after she was done he’d find a copy of the bill in his drawer.

“OK.”

Laugh, a big smile. “Where’s my drawer?”

Rehm has an idea for another bill but set it aside for this 30-day session, limited largely to budget matters. He hopes to be back for the 2007 session but faces election this fall, along with the other 69 House members.

“If I could get one bill through, that would be monumental,” he said.

On Rehm’s way back down to the House floor, Rep. Keith Gardner, a Republican from Roswell, shouted to him: “We’re having that press conference in the rotunda at 2 p.m. You should go.”

Sure, Rehm said, he’ll go.

“Now show me which way is the rotunda?” Rehm whispered to a reporter at his side.

Rehm, 55 and grandfatherly, partly bald and with a made-for-a-detective-TV-show mustache, is a longtime law enforcer retired from the Sheriff’s Department. He’s now a private investigator and teaches police how to recreate crashes. He’s married with two kids, and coaches soccer.

He put parts of his personal life on hold to become a lawmaker in a hurry. But this is what he signed up for.

Rep. Sandra Townsend, a Republican from Aztec who sits next to Rehm on the House floor, said learning intricacies of the Roundhouse can take a decade. Or three.

For 28 years before she was elected, Townsend attended meetings at the Capitol for her job as San Juan County clerk.

“I thought I knew it all. But there’s a lot to learn,” she said.

So Townsend, elected in 1995, said she’ll lend Rehm a hand when he needs it.

He might need assistance with tasks like figuring out what each of the four buttons on his desk on the House floor do.

(Green is to vote yes, red for no, black is to get in line to speak, white to call his page if he needs anything.)

Rehm said he’s catching on.

The hardest part so far?

“Getting totally up to speed in a week. I have been getting here early every day.”

Published Jan. 20, 2006.

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Hotshots are accustomed to being the first responders to large blazes

Hotshots are accustomed to being the first responders to large blazes

By Kate Nash
Tribune Reporter

SANTA FE NATIONAL FOREST – Standing in front of a two-foot-high pile of piñon and ponderosa, James Champ reaches forward and unleashes a wall of orange.

Within 10 seconds, the pile is popping and the flames are licking a dozen feet into the air. The stack of logs and branches reaches 600 degrees, then 800, and sucks air like an industrial fan.Champ, a wildland firefighter, has started a prescribed burn in the far northern corner of Santa Fe National Forest.

As a member of the Santa Fe Interagency Hotshot Crew, Champ works for the U.S. Forest Service to fight fires.

But burning brush and trees is also part of his job, especially in a year like this, when underbrush and weeds are thick from a good growing season last year. By lighting a fire now, he is eliminating fuel from a future conflagration.

And where some might see the flames as a dangerous enemy, Champ sees beauty.

“It’s really a fun thing to manipulate,” he said. “It’s really an art form.”

Before 7 a.m. on a recent day, Champ drives a mint-green Forest Service crew carrier north of Espanola on U.S. 84/285. His destination is a patch of forest in a remote corner of Rio Arriba County.

The top-heavy machine resembles a locker room on wheels. Inside, the firefighters — guys in their 20s and 30s, some wearing Oakley sunglasses and listening to iPods — sit like athletes going to a game.

Tucked in their seats and surrounded by enough gear to keep them going for weeks, the Santa Fe crew members are ready for a day of what they do best: line work.

To battle wildland fires in places that often have no water, hotshots work in row, averaging 20 at a time, digging a two-foot-wide trench ahead of fire’s advance. It’s a way to box in the flames and eliminate the fuel source, Champ says.

The Santa Fe team is one of 20 hotshot crews in New Mexico and Arizona. They are often the first responders in big fires far off the beaten path, and they are often seen as the elite among firefighters.

A four-year veteran of the crew, Champ, 31, said the physical work is not the hardest part about the job, for which hotshots can earn $25,000 to $30,000 in a six-month season.

“It’s mentally tough more than anything,” he said. “It’s 16-hour days for 14 days sometimes. You’re tired.”

Those days often involve sleeping in tents or on the ground, being away from families and the familiar feel of sheets and showers.

The work takes them to remote places like today’s destination, in a woody but dry corner of Rio Arriba County, where PowerBars replace Starbucks runs, sandwiches stand in for restaurant food and cell phone reception is out of the question.

Champ’s “office” is often nothing but forest, thick and scratchy in some parts but thinner in the areas the hotshots have already cleared.

Today, the crew will stand in the mud from a recent snow and burn piles of wood and brush.

But on another day, Champ and other firefighters could find themselves driving or flying out of state to work. The crew members are assigned nationally and pitch in wherever they’re assigned, regardless of which federal agency manages the land.

Members of the Santa Fe group have been all over, from Minnesota to Mexico.

“We’re like a city fire department, but we cover the United States,” said crew superintendent Rich Tingle.

As the truck rolls up into the forest on N.M. 96, the firefighters hop out, dressed in fire-resistant yellow and green clothing, hard hats and 30-to 40-pound packs.

Everyone has rolls of white tape for marking exit routes from a fire. They carry hot-pink paper to signal to helicopters that might hover. Everyone has six quarts of drinking water.

On a cool spring morning, they break into pairs and descend into the woods to light piles.

As they tend each blaze, which will take several hours to burn out, they talk about what they like – and don’t like – about fighting fires for a living.

“You give up your summer,” said Dave Simpson, a Pennsylvania native who joined the crew in 2003. “When you’re in town, you see people going to a movie and you remember what the public does.”

Friends might be going on a bike ride, but the hotshots can’t, Simpson said.

“You’d do that, but you’d have to go in the winter.”

Tingle views the work from a different angle.

“It’s nice out here,” he said, taking in the morning light on a stand of magnificent ponderosa pines and a yellow field below.

“You don’t have the red lights or traffic or people.”

But in the same breath, Tingle said, he misses those people – or at least a relationship. That’s a common refrain from the men on the crew.

“I can’t even have a dog,” Champ says. “I’m never home.”

Like Tingle, Champ lists the good things as quickly as the down sides to spending most of his time away from his own home, and protecting those of strangers.

“It’s not bad. You just adjust your lifestyle. It ceases to be a job. It’s a living.”

Published April 20, 2006.

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In ’37 House, pretty Ortiz y Pino de Kleven refused to sit

In ’37 House, pretty Ortiz y Pino de Kleven refused to sit

By Kate Nash
Tribune Columnist

SANTA FE – She was born before New Mexico was a state.

Elected majority whip before any other woman in the country.

And among the first women to run a ranch by herself.

Now 96, Concha Ortiz y Pino de Kleven can barely get the words out to describe those days.

Her voice is less than a whisper, an echo from decades past.

But the memories of serving in the earliest days of the Legislature are there, although they come in waves.

“I think that the attitude was that women sit in the corner and be pretty,” Ortiz y Pino de Kleven said of the years after her election to the state House in 1937.

“I said, ‘I’m not pretty. I’m not going to sit in the corner.’ “

She is pretty. But sit she didn’t. And still won’t.

If you lean in close, she’ll tell you she fought for bilingual education, for women’s rights. That not all the men were nice back then. That women today are too worried about styles. That she thinks her nose is too big.

“I thought that women should get elected,” she said. “I said to them, `We women come first.’ “

The bilingual Ortiz y Pino de Kleven, who has been honored probably a hundred times for her community service, her teaching and her work on behalf of the state, visited the Capitol last week. She was hugged and kissed and thanked by everyone, everywhere she went.

She travels inch by inch and with a blue walker. Yellowed oxygen tubes feed her air. But her mind is as sharp as ever.

Ortiz y Pino de Kleven was the third woman elected to the Legislature and served until 1941. At the time, only 532,000 people lived in New Mexico. John E. Miles was governor. Some 40 percent of homes had running water. It was a year before Los Alamos would become the site of the Manhattan Project.

In the 1950s, she commandeered the huge cattle and sheep ranch called Agua Verde in San Miguel County. She later went on to be a dean at St. Joseph’s College in Albuquerque.

She’s also the star of “!Concha! Concha Ortiz Y Pino, Matriarch of a 300-Year-Old New Mexico Legacy,” a biography written by author Kathryn M. Cordova.

It’s a cliche to say, but in her checked black-and-white wool outfit, with her hair pinned in a bun with clips that could be 40 years old, Ortiz y Pino de Kleven is a living legend.

Even her jewelry – giant pearl clip-on earrings and necklace – emanate the fashion, the flavor of another time.

That’s part of what makes her a role model for modern-day legislators.

Senate Majority Whip Mary Jane Garcia, a Democrat from Dona Ana, first met Ortiz y Pino de Kleven at church. It was so many years ago, she can’t remember when.

But Garcia says she does remember that she was so awe-struck by all the things Ortiz y Pino de Kleven had done that she was a bit intimidated to approach her.

“She has been a real role model for so many of us,” Garcia said.

And not just for the 34 women who serve now in the 112-member Legislature.

“She was an exception for her time,” said her second cousin, Sen. Jerry Ortiz y Pino, an Albuquerque Democrat.

“She thought she was just as good as any man.”

As she talks from her seat in the Senate lounge, Sen. Pete Campos comes in and kneels down in front of Concha.

“What’s your name?” she asks in Spanish. He answers.

“He looks like an old-timer,” she says, taking Campos’ baby face between her hands.

“Gracias,” Campos, a Las Vegas Democrat, says laughing.

“You’re doing so good,” he tells her, twice.

“I have a new boyfriend,” she says of Campos.

She smiles but can barely get the words out.

Still, the memories come.

“It was such a pleasure. It was such a pleasure,” she said of those days.

“People were so friendly,” she whispers. “People wanted to be good.

“I’m so proud to be a New Mexican,” says the woman who for many is the ultimate symbol of everything our state is.

After a 15-minute interview, Ortiz y Pino de Kleven is too tired to speak much more.

So she’s taken home for the day. She lives just down the street.

She’ll be back.

Published Jan. 30, 2006.

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Mexican Consul Solana is a link between two nations

Mexican Consul Solana is a link between two nations

By Kate Nash
Tribune Reporter

Growing up on the edge of one of the planet’s biggest cities, Juan Manuel Solana lived with a foot in two worlds: His family had an expansive garden in the mountains above Mexico City, while the giant municipality offered all its charms below.

He figured he was one of the luckiest kids around, able to live in the nearly empty countryside that’s since been developed.

“I had the best of both worlds, of having the largest garden in the world for me,” he said.

As the Mexican consul in Albuquerque, Solana still lives in two worlds – two countries that are inextricably linked.

Solana, 47, alternately works as a mediator, negotiator and cultural ambassador between a pair of nations that despite their proximity can seem galaxies apart.

In the past year, he’s helped the state Taxation and Revenue Department get access to a Mexican government database to check the veracity of documents used by Mexicans to get New Mexico driver’s licenses.

He helped Bernalillo County sheriff’s deputies bring accused murderer Michael Astorga back to the United States from Juarez.

And he helped the families of Mexican immigrants killed in a car wreck near Santa Fe earlier this year get the bodies of their loved ones back.

“He really exemplifies what a consul needs to do for their community,” said Pablo Martinez, the state director of the League of United Latin American Citizens.

“He has opened up his office to the community and really has had an open door,” Martinez said.

Solana took the post in 2001, with the approval of then-president Vicente Fox.

With the recent election of Felipe Calderon, Solana could be replaced.

But Solana, with salt-and-pepper hair and an almost grandfatherly smile, doesn’t worry about that. The Christmas season is a crazy time for the consulate, which helps thousands of Mexican and U.S. citizens each year at its office on Fourth Street just north of Downtown.

For Solana, who once worked for big-name companies in Mexico like Pemex, the national petroleum corporation, recalling his accomplishments over the years comes easily and brings smiles to his otherwise serious face.

The memories also come without a hint of bragging, without letting on that he’s arguably the most important advocate for immigrants in Albuquerque.

He helped Mexicans in jail get an education before being deported. Helped bring numerous Mexican cultural events and exhibitions to the state. Helped workers who weren’t being treated fairly. Helped Gov. Bill Richardson arrange meetings with two Mexican presidents in Mexico City.

His office has 13 employees, with divisions dedicated to a range of services from immigrant protection to health care and education.

The immigrant protection division is among his favorites, he said, although he’s quick to offers a positive assessment of each.

“It’s the department that gives you the greatest satisfaction, where you really can do something for so many,” he said.

When asked to choose a best moment in his nearly six years on duty, he can’t. There are too many, he says.

Solana, a former professor who is single, collects Mexican coins for fun, including the 2 peso gold coin he pulls out of a plastic case in his pocket on a recent day.

The price of gold is going up, he says. Good thing for his collection, he laughs.

Solana has filled his sunny, south-facing office with Mexican art – pottery from the village of Mata Ortiz, shelves of sculptures, prints and paintings.

The collection is a testament to the culture he loves and promotes, as well as a symbol of the immigrants he works to help.

Immigrants’ presence in the United States is something Congress needs to address, he said.

“We are not solving the problem, and that problem is a lot of people are willing to pay a lot of money to come here and work. There is a lot of need in Mexico,” he said.

“I hope the Americans and the American Congress find the way.”

While Solana is an ambassador of sorts between two counties, he also has to work with the variety of state and federal government agencies in the United States.

He has contacts at OSHA, the Department of Labor, the Governor’s Office, you name it.

Those who have worked with him say he doesn’t like to take credit for his work, much as he deserves it.

“I will be forever indebted to Juan for what he did for us after Astorga was captured in Juarez,” said Bernalillo County Sheriff Darren White. “I think people should know he was very much involved, and I consider him a friend and always will.”

Solana said he was just one of a group of people who worked the case, in which sheriff’s deputies were able to get Astorga out of Mexico after he was arrested in the border town across from El Paso. Deputies had been searching for Astorga for 12 days.

White said he works with Solana often, including when Mexican nationals are crime victims.

“Victims of crime sometimes are reluctant to come forward, and feel more comfortable going through the consulate,” White said.

At the Taxation and Revenue Department, Solana helped form the first partnership in the nation in which a U.S. state agency could access information from a Mexican government database.

The department can use the database to verify documents presented by immigrants who have New Mexico driver’s licenses.

Richardson earlier this year ordered an audit of the 30,000 licenses held by immigrants – a daunting task that could have been harder without Solana as a link between the two governments, said Ken Ortiz, director of the state Motor Vehicle Division.

“Consul Solana went above and beyond and worked with the Mexican government to provide us Web access to do the inquiries,” Ortiz said.

Other agencies like the state’s Homeland Security Office also depend on Solana, not on a daily basis, but as a connection to have just in case.

Homeland Security Adviser Tim Manning said that should any kind of serious international incident occur at the border, he’d know whose number to dial.

“If we ever were to get into a situation where we needed to work with the Mexican government on something, he’d be our first call,” Manning said.

But Solana doesn’t worry about the worst that could happen at the border or anywhere else.

He tries to look for the good in the bad, like an accident in Santa Fe in February that left four Mexican nationals dead and eight injured after the sport utility vehicle they were riding in flipped.

“I remember the case; I remember the people that died. It was sad at the time, but it was something good that we helped the (dead) people from the accident to go back to Mexico,” he said.

Along with the grim moments, Solana’s job also includes work on subjects including international trade promotion.

When Solana started six years ago, New Mexico did $120 million in trade with Mexico, he said.

Now, the figure is more like $600 million.

Still, Solana says, work looms.

“I’m sure more can be done. I’m sure we’re going to be able to do more.”

Published Dec. 16, 2006.

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To the people Albuquerque’s Brother Thomas helps, he’s a hero

To the people Albuquerque’s Brother Thomas helps, he’s a hero

By Kate Nash
Tribune Reporter

The Christmas cards taped onto Brother Thomas Reis’ living room television tell it all.

There are Thank You’s, and God Bless You’s and Peace Be With You’s. There are so many that it’s hard to see what’s actually on the screen.

In all, 71 are visible, from Maine and Florida and Alaska and Hawaii, with surely more tucked away in other parts of Reis’ spare one-bedroom home. Others are no doubt on their way.

“This one is from the nicest person, a real angel,” Reis says.

His first sentence on a recent afternoon is the type of phrase he repeats over the hours.

“Why don’t you write about Ida instead of me?” he asks.

“Why don’t you call up Cheryl? She’s helped a lot of people. I’ll give you her phone number.”

Brother Thomas makes these inquiries even though a reporter is sitting in his Downtown apartment specifically to talk about him and his work. He has to be steered back on topic several times.

That’s because pointing to others is what he does.

But those he’s pointing at – the people in Albuquerque who know him and his charity and his influence – say Brother Thomas is a man an entire city should be following.

“He has the patience that only a modern-day saint could have,” says longtime friend Richard Treynor.

“Here’s a guy who cooks 20 or 30 meals and then hands them out. But he won’t take any credit,” Treynor added.

Though Brother Thomas demurs, constantly deflecting attention to others, he is a hero, the real thing, in Albuquerque’s low-income, elderly and religious communities.

He is, they say, a man who has dedicated his life and belongings to helping those who otherwise might not have a chance – or a champion.

They credit him with helping get the Barrett House up and running.

And keeping residents at St. Mary Rest Home, where he once worked, comfortable.

And making the other 31 elderly and low-income citizens feel welcome at the Hibernian House, where he lives.

And getting food to – and cooking for – thousands at the Good Shepherd Center and other centers around the city.

“He doesn’t like a lot of fanfare,” says Good Shepherd Brother Charles Schreiner. “He’ll pull in with a whole station wagon full of food. He doesn’t expect receipts or publicity or anything.”

With climbing food costs this year, places like the Good Shepherd are struggling to keep the hungry full, Schreiner says.

“Because of people like him, we can continue to help people. Otherwise, we’d really have to struggle,” Schreiner added.

The sight of Brother Thomas and his sun-battered, subcompact station wagon full of food is a common one in places where hunger is a constant shadow and help a rare beam of sunlight.

Acquaintances and friends repeat tales of Brother Thomas pulling up to a homeless shelter, a rest home, wherever, with just the things people need.

The other thing they say is this:

You can’t say no to Brother Thomas.

“If somebody needs something, he can get on the phone and talk anybody into anything,” says Patrick Newell, the outgoing director of St. Mary Rest Home.

Newell recalls the time a resident at the home couldn’t afford some badly needed dental care. Within days, a dentist was volunteering his time, Newell says.

When working the phones doesn’t do the trick, Brother Thomas goes in person to grocery stores to pick up food that he redistributes to shelters.

Larry Vehar, an Albertsons store manager, says Brother Thomas doesn’t have to work much to get others to give.

“He doesn’t have to try very hard,” Vehar says. “His work is a good cause and we don’t mind helping.”

Vehar says he’s seen others inspired by Brother Thomas during his trips to the store.

“I’ve seen people pull money out of their pockets,” he says.

Just as no one seems to be able to say no to Brother Thomas or his Irish eyes and hopeful smile, he, in turn, wouldn’t dream of turning anyone down.

Isabel Quillin, who has known and worked with Brother Thomas for 30 years, says she’s only gotten angry with him once.

“He took back a guy who was stealing from him,” she says. “I was mad for two weeks.”

Unfortunately, Brother Thomas is slowing down. At age 72, he does his work with the help of 14 medicines for his ailing lungs, a fragile kidney, shot bronchial tubes, plus a tumor that has crunched his spine.

But slowing down is far from stopping.

Brother Thomas still starts his days with the early Mass at Immaculate Conception Church. The service is tantamount to his breakfast – a chance to replenish his soul before a day of hard work, harder stories and little relief.

“I’m there before 7. I make my holy hour, my rosary, my stations of the cross, my spiritual account,” Brother Thomas says of his devotional at Immaculate Conception. “That’s my bank. God, I need that so I can make it through the day.”

If that doesn’t do it, Brother Thomas knows he’s got one last stash of peace – and peace of mind.

In his bedroom closet, next to the clothes that Quillin buys for him at second-hand stores, are pallets of beans, soup, canned chili.

It’s not for him. It’s for someone else – just in case he runs into someone who needs help.

That kind of preparation is something he’s been doing in Albuquerque since the mid-1950s, when he first arrived – seven years before Thomas Reis actually became Brother Thomas.

He rode the train into town, armed with a love of cooking, opera, classical music. His previous stops were varied – rural Oregon and Houston and Philadelphia and New Orleans. He says he was born in 1935 on a boat between Ireland and the United States, before his family’s name was changed from Rice to Reis.

“Don’t put those silly little details in the paper,” he pleads.

He came here to work with someone he had been writing to: Brother Mathias Barrett, a man he credits as a major inspiration in his life.

Barrett was an Irish priest who founded the Congregation of the Little Brothers of the Good Shepherd in Albuquerque in the 1950s. The center is known as one of the first to concentrate on helping the city’s homeless.

Brother Thomas could relate to the homeless, in part because he left home when he was 14. He’d wanted to see a Benedictine monastery, he says.

“You’re not going to put that in there, are you?”

He smiles.

He says he was one of six brothers and sisters, though Brother Thomas’ family is now in the Midwest. He has no children.

As he worked, the years flew by. One success story begat another, which begat a connection, which helped someone else.

He is flipping through a book of photos inside the community room at the Hibernian House – Thanksgiving dinners and St. Patrick’s Days, Christmases past.

He smiles again, and tries a sigh, which turns into a cough, fueled by pneumonia and bronchitis.

“She’s a gem, that doctor I’ve got,” he says.

Though he has a vast network of friends who are virtually family, Brother Thomas has a true love.

She’s 5 inches tall, with whiskery tan-and-white hair, four legs and a love for Brother Thomas that won’t quit.

She’s Baby, his dog, another of his “angels.” The one who sleeps right next to him, follows at his heels as he pulls his oxygen tank.

Vehar, who says Brother Thomas has given away the gifts he’s given him over the years, has only seen Brother Thomas keep one: a chew toy and a sweater for Baby.

“Everything else, flowers, I don’t care what we’ve given over the years . . . he always finds somebody that’s more needy,” Vehar says.

Brother Thomas says he has never thought of doing anything else with his life.

“You have to give in order to receive,” he says by way of explanation. “If you put money into the bank, you get interest.

“You put no money in, you get nothing. So what you put into the almighty God, when those days come when it’s so hard, (and you’re wondering) ‘Where’s my next meal coming from?’ . . . there’s where the almighty God gives you that interest, there’s that faith you have to have.”

Apart from God, Brother Thomas’ inspiration comes from those who served before him – those other people he keeps pointing at, giving the credit to.

“Everyone I know, who I’ve read the lives of, St. Teresa of Avila, St. Therese of the Little Flower, St. Catherine, Mother Teresa, Brother Mathias, all them people suffered,” Brother Thomas says. “But He never gives you no more than you can take.”

Published Dec. 25, 2007.

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Woman watches New Mexico grow from window of small-town store

Woman watches New Mexico grow from window of small-town store

Kate Nash | The New Mexican

PEÑASCO — When she first moved to this mountain enclave in 1946, Patty Sahd would look out the front window of her family’s store and see women in black shawls walking to church on dirt roads.

In later years, she saw families in wagons and then, gradually, the first motorized cars. Men in pickups came over gravel roads, and then women drove up in sedans.

Later still, after the roads were paved, Sahd saw the convoys of hippies and the occasional mobile home being pulled slowly all the way up to this high-altitude town.

Now 97, Sahd is among the New Mexicans who have lived almost as long as New Mexico has been a state. On Sunday, New Mexico begins its centennial year, marking in particular Jan. 6, 1912, as the day the 47th state joined the union.

Recently, Sahd and three other New Mexicans whose lives span most of the statehood period talked to The New Mexican and reflected on their small but significant slices of state history.

Born before women won the right to vote, Sahd has lived to see New Mexico elect Susana Martinez as its first female governor. Statehood-era families saw few cars on the narrow dirt roads of the time, but by now, people such as Sahd have witnessed the construction of four-lane freeways and public transit systems designed to reduce the ever-growing traffic on the those roads.

When Sahd was growing up in rural Santa Fe County south of Santa Fe, it was hard for children to get to school, and today it is easy to go to college. On any given day, less than half of New Mexico’s school-age youngsters would be in school. Today, in urban-oriented New Mexico, even higher education is all around — 17 public colleges and universities serve 80,000 students.

Sahd, a kindly grandma to five and mother to two boys, had the opportunity to watch from a small-town perspective as the state developed. Her town, Peñasco, which grew and changed after World War II, has settled into its place as a quiet Taos County community of about 2,000 people clustered in the rural area northeast of Española.

Girl from Santa Fe

Patty and Pete Sahd arrived in Peñasco in 1946, married and ready to buy a little store and earn a living.

For both, it was close to where they grew up; she south of Santa Fe and he in Cerrillos, after his family emigrated from Lebanon when he was a small boy.

The couple’s paths would cross ways in the teaching field; he worked in Golden and then Stanley, she in Cerrillos and then Stanley, where they fell in love.

Pete Sahd graduated from St. Michael’s High School in 1929. He went on to The University of New Mexico, where he played football and basketball and ran track.

While Patty taught grade school, Pete taught English and coached athletics. Among Pete Sahd’s students was Bruce King, who the couple would later see as he campaigned for governor in the north.

Later, the pair moved to Florida, where Pete Sahd served in the Navy.

After World War II ended, Sahd, who worked in radar, was ready for something else, something less secretive. Buying the Peñasco store seemed perfect.

After leaving Florida, they temporarily lived in Taos before the move to Peñasco. After 44 active years in the village, Pete Sahd died in 1990 at age 78.

During their travels, the Sahds drove an early ’40s Chevrolet coup, considered a luxury at the time.

But even with a nice vehicle, the trip was tough.

“The roads were terrible,” Patty Sahd said. “Not a little terrible — terrible terrible.”

With time, though, the main road through town started to get better. Slowly.

Before Sahd’s eyes, it went from a muddy strip to a paved state road, part of the roughly 4,000 miles in New Mexico that were asphalt at the time.

The paths to nearby Española and Taos also would improve, as the years went on and as the town grew.

Raising sons, keeping shop

The Sahds’ sons, Randy and Ted, were part of that growth.

Randy was born in nearby Taos; his brother had been born in Albuquerque.

Both went to the local public school, which was run by nuns.

Once the boys were juniors in high school, the Sahds sent them to the New Mexico Military Institute.

Later, Ted went on to the Air Force Academy, and Randy went to UNM, where he studied business. After graduation, he moved back to Peñasco.

After a long career in the military, including as a pilot and trainer, Ted retired and lives in Albuquerque. But he never stopped longing for the tiny town where he grew up.

In a recent interview, he readily recounted his times roaming miles from home without parental supervision.

“It was a safe place. It was a place where my parents and all my friends’ parents allowed us to roam at will. We’d go two and three or four miles away,” he said.

Now 70, Ted Sahd recalled being interested early on in the horses tied to the hitching post in front of his family’s store.

His contact with horses blossomed into a love for the big animals and for the family’s ranch, in part because the bike and roller skates with which he tried to travel around Peñasco didn’t do so well on dirt roads.

Participatory road paving

Ted Sahd, a pilot who has master’s degrees in engineering and political science, also recalled being fascinated with the men who came to pave the road in the early 1950s.

The roadwork was a blend of ingenuity and politics: It took both the manual labor and some lobbying by the locals before the project would be completed.

“If you wanted a road, you had to put up a bond, and to put up a bond, you needed permission from the [local] legislator and the governor. You had to go down and lobby,” he said in a recent interview.

While he, like many who grew up in this town, left Peñasco for other places, Patty Sahd never wanted to go once she had settled in.

As those wheels of the new times brought novelties her way, Sahd saw just enough of the outside world to know that she was where she wanted to be.

“Anybody that grows up in these two-bit towns like Peñasco really likes the town, and you want to go back to it,” she said.

War times

As the country entered the early ’50s and the Korean War, many families in the area played a role in the war effort, particularly by sending their men abroad.

The Sahds played a role during war times, too, helping relay the sad news of those who had died, as the phone in their store was one of the few in town.

“[The military] was sending [the dead] people back,” Sahd said. “We had to tell people who had the misfortune of waiting for people to be brought back.”

The Sahds had also felt the sting of world war; Patty’s brother Myron died in Japan after the Bataan Death March from an infection that wasn’t properly treated, about a month before he was due home.

Later, as the country moved to combat in Vietnam, Patty Sahd lived the life many mothers of sons in war did: one of waiting anxiously for news of her baby every day he was gone.

Ted flew frequently in and out of Vietnam, and he made it home safe, unlike more than 400 New Mexicans who didn’t return from that war.

As she worked for the family business, Patty Sahd worried.

It was all she could do.

“We just went day by day and hoped everything was going to be all right. There was really nothing you could do about it.”

People in town weren’t part of nationwide anti-war protests. They didn’t gather around to reject the country’s involvement, she said in November.

“They were just kind of swallowing what was happening to them,” she said.

With Ted back on U.S. soil, Patty Sahd felt good about the times. It was calm in her quiet town.

The civil rights movement was beginning, but it seemed a world away from the store, the gardens, the things that needed tending to in this modest village where people generally got along.

Second-generation shopkeeper

Soon, Randy Sahd would return from UNM and take over the store, where he works today.

He’s also the Peñasco volunteer fire chief.

The scene at the store is a real-life drama played in real time. On a recent day, Randy Sahd gets a call about a chimney fire and dashes out the door, leaving his mother to look over the few customers who wander in.

The customers buy a few things, but not big ones. The purchases pale in comparison to the big orders the Sahds used to handle.

One buyer needs an electrical box that costs less than $3, another a copy of the Rio Grande Sun.

From her perch at the entrance of the store, Patty Sahd minds the cash register when it’s busy and looks out the window when it’s not.

The store around her is almost a shrine to the past, with a beauty section that has a dated, dusty Health and Beauty sign.

There’s candy for less than a dollar and hair products in dated boxes, seemingly from the ’80s or before.

It’s quiet, except for the whoosh of wheels from the occasional car driving by the Sahds’ front windows.

The heaters hanging from the ceiling no longer work, victims of a broken part that’s no longer made. Sahd huddles into several layers of fleece, as she is by now used to the cold at these altitudes.

In between customers, she has time to recall how the business used to be.

Back then, people ordered sacks of flour and sugar in 25- and 50-pound bags.

Back then, Sahd and her husband would let people into the store after hours, for they had traveled mightily to get there.

Back then, a small business could afford to sell groceries and not worry about the competition undercutting their prices.

Back then, overalls and socks and underwear sold well, keeping the Sahds in business.

Back then.

As Sahd thinks about yesteryears, her early time in Peñasco seems like another age, she said.

“It just seems like two eras,” she said.

“It’s just like those were old times and these are new times and whatever happened in between … I was so busy I didn’t notice.”

Published Jan. 1, 2012.

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Back on Course

Five years after the horrific Cerro Grande fire, the people of Los Alamos, and some of their surroundings, have slowly returned to life

By Kate Nash
Tribune Reporter

LOS ALAMOS – Less than a week after a runaway forest fire shredded their hilltop home, Sue and Stan Bodenstein stood in an Albuquerque Wal-Mart parking lot with a list of things they would need to start restocking their lives.

“I turned to Stan and hugged him and said, ‘After 32 years of marriage, we’re starting from scratch,’ because the first thing on the list was underwear,” said Sue Bodenstein, a retired travel agent.

As the couple began to rebuild their world with material goods, they also needed a supply of intangibles, like patience and humor — qualities they would need while waiting for their house on Arizona Street to again be a home.

The Bodensteins and more than 200 other families whose lives were scorched by the Cerro Grande Fire five years ago this week were about to learn that getting back to normal involved more than merely reconstructing their physical location.

A big part of building anew after losing everything has meant reclaiming a positive attitude amid the shock.

“We’ve got a nice house now,” Stan Bodenstein said. “We had a nice house before. It wasn’t easy from there to here. But the negative things we’ve just kind of shoved off to the side.”

On May 10, 2000, the most expensive fire in the Southwest’s history roared into this town, gulped down homes, incinerated wildlife habitat and chewed holes through parts of Los Alamos County’s utilities system.

It burned almost 8,000 acres of property owned by Los Alamos National Laboratory for a time threatening the birthplace of the atomic bomb.

The Cerro Grande also ate more than 47,000 acres of ponderosa pine, aspen and oak, and it displaced hundreds of people for months.

But the unbelievably hot flames also brought together the people of Los Alamos in a way some say nothing else could have.

“We are a lot closer because of everything that happened,” Sue Bodenstein said. “Where you had superficial friendships, you’ve gotten to know people a lot better.”

Today, half a decade since New Mexico’s smallest county became the site of the state’s biggest disaster, most houses on Arizona Street once the stark epitome of what an unleashed inferno can do to serene, picturesque neighborhood have been rebuilt.

Others are in various stages of building. Modern adobe and brick mark progress along streets that are slippery with mud because underground utilities are still being fixed.

But the blackened, brittle pine trees that loom from the ridge along the street are reminders of the lessons learned.

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Above the rebuilding, above Arizona and Yucca streets, the once-majestic slopes of Los Alamos are charred and stripped, looking like a bomb blew through instead of a fire.

That sight makes Los Alamos County’s fire chief, Douglas MacDonald, sick.

“When I look at the mountain, I see the burned hill and I get ill every day,” he said. “I look at the issues our community has suffered every day, the people leaving, the streets torn up.”

MacDonald, who oversees a department of 117 firefighters, said the Cerro Grande Fire left a mixed bag of emotions and results in its wake.

On one hand, his department was able to buy a new fleet.

“(But) I don’t think the good is even close to the bad,” he said. “I don’t think having a new house outweighs all that.”

Apart from residents who have seen their neighborhoods upended, MacDonald lamented the fact that the Los Alamos reservoir, a popular recreation area for hiking and fishing, remains closed to the public, because it is unstable.

“We lost a pristine family reservoir that doesn’t look like it’s going to open for four or five years,” he said.

As the fire subsided and residents were able to see its destruction, many lashed out at the National Park Service for allowing a controlled burn on a windy May day. They said they were frustrated by forest management policies that let the woods grow into perfect fuel for the fire. To this day, many say it was clear the forests were too thick; that they would burn; that no one did anything about it.

Interior Secretary Bruce Babbitt visited Santa Fe and accepted government responsibility for the fire. And there has been a cost: The Federal Emergency Management Agency has paid more than $546 million in claims to individuals, businesses and government agencies through the end of April. Four claim cases are pending, said FEMA spokesman David Passey.

FEMA spent $23 million on emergency services, replacing infrastructure and putting residents up in temporary housing. Federal officials reconsidered the Wildland Fire Management Policy and urged residents to put a “defensible space” between their new homes and the forest, an area called the “urban-wildland interface.”

The Bodensteins, however, were familiar with those terms and had a xeriscaped lawn with gravel, hoping to ward off flames. The Cerro Grande was too hot, too big, too fast.

And the town the residents Los Alamos evacuated that day was nothing like the place to which they would return.

***

Less than a mile from the Bodensteins, Dwey Molleur’s recollection of that warm spring day is quite different. The Cerro Grande, which randomly hopscotched over some houses, left only burned spots on his Woodland Road roof.

It took Molleur, a retired welder, five days to find out his simple, single-story white house was among the saved.

After the fire, he spent 10 days in Albuquerque and lost two refrigerators full of food he had filled just before relatives were set to visit.

“We just thank God every day,” he said. “We thank the firemen.”

The location of Molleur’s house, a block in from the forest instead of up against it like the homes on Arizona Street, could have meant its demise. But it also could have led to its salvation.

His house is one block closer to Los Alamos Fire Station No. 4, about a mile away.

Firefighters at the station are close enough to see from their kitchen window the same burned ridges that border Arizona Street.

Like other residents, each firefighter at the station has memories of the two weeks straight many spent taking stabs at the orange monster.

Capt. Justin Grider remembers sleeping one night on a concrete floor and using a roll of paper towels for a pillow. Another firefighter slept on the gurney of an unused ambulance. Many went without seeing their families for days, all while fighting the fire that seemed like it would never die.

All interviewed recently said they were more than glad to do it.

And the firefighters remarked how amazing it was no one died that day.

The help the firefighters provided started a loop of other assistance, with residents and people from throughout the state giving them what they could; massages, water, meals, encouragement, a place to sleep, a thank-you.

A few residents who lost their homes were angry with firefighters for not doing more. But firefighters said the majority of people gave them accolades for their efforts.

Some firefighters lamented the fact they couldn’t do more and spoke of how hard it was to stand and watch houses fall apart at the hand of the flames.

Others still marvel at the sheer size of the Cerro Grande.

“You got a career’s worth of firefighting in two weeks,” firefighter Steve Dawald said.

***

Before the Bodensteins’ lot could be built on again, the past had to be taken away.
Clearing out their old home started with days and nights of meetings with federal and county government officials, and appointments with insurance adjusters.

One of the hardest parts of losing a lifetime of memories was creating what came to be known as the Contents List, the Bodensteins said. Their insurance company needed an inventory of what the family once owned in order to calculate what would be covered and how much money they would get.

“I went around the rooms mentally and started opening drawers and looking in them,” Sue Bodenstein said. “And then it was like a weight was lifted.”

Thinking about all that had been lost also became a turning point, the pair said.

“I think it was a way of saying goodbye,” she said.

And they moved on.

Eventually, they’d have to give county officials the final OK to tear down their chimney –the only really recognizable part left of their home — and allow construction equipment to bite up what was once their foundation.

But before that, they had to sort one last time through the rubble of their memories, another part of detaching themselves from the things they and their two adult children once owned.

Stan Bodenstein, an engineer at Los Alamos National Laboratory, said he became fascinated with finding things, no matter the condition.

In many ways, seeing bits of his life for the last time was a form of closure.

“You end up having a drive to find stuff,” he said. “But once you find it, you look at it, it’s totally useless, and you can just chuck it.”

Amid the rubble, there was the family’s entire nativity set, blackened but there. A cup with what Stan Bodenstein guesses is the glass from a wine bottle melted on it. A few ounces of what once was a 10-pound bronze bell. Several pieces of pottery in good shape apparently because they had been fired by the potter. A silver Nambe serving platter, twisted into what looks like molten sea coral.

Sue’s childhood Christmas stocking was there, too, charred and torn but mostly, unbelievably, intact.

While the Cerro Grande was hot enough to lick all the color off what it didn’t destroy, one item lay there with all of its color: an angel Sue’s mom had given her years before.

The family has put some of what they salvaged on display in their living room, a testament to the fire’s power and to the past.

Although the couple cling to those reminders, Sue said she learned that life and friendship are more valuable than any one thing.

“It’s like, all of a sudden, what’s really important is brought into focus. The material stuff, it’s just stuff.”

Published May 6, 2005.

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Frontier of Grit

Frontier of Grit: No electric lines or easy water. Bad roads. County warnings. Yet about 350 families, many from Mexico, prefer this plateau of dirt to the drawbacks of Albuquerque 12 miles away. And the settlers continue to come, their mobile homes and the American Dream in tow.

By Kate Nash
Tribune Reporter

PAJARITO MESA — Logistically, it was a fairly simple move.
Three men in a truck hauled a mobile home three miles across a latticework of rugged roads to a place called Pajarito Mesa.

But the change of address to a place without one was an event of huge proportions in the lives of Joel and Nelida Gonzalez.

Their relocation, to this remote settlement on a plateau above Albuquerque, was a dream nearly four years and two countries in the making.

By 21st-century standards, the Gonzalezes’ dwelling in the shadow of a mountainous tire pile isn’t much.

Their new home, like many on the parched land 12 miles southwest of the city, doesn’t have the basic services that most New Mexicans took for granted decades ago.

But to Nelida, Joel, Adrian, Luis, Susana and Joel Jr., getting this home felt like heaven.

“At first, it’s hard to adjust, to flipping the switch and there’s no water or electricity. But up here, we have our own place, away from the city, and much more tranquil,” said Nelida, 26.

“Up here” is an unincorporated but fast-developing area that some see as an eyesore at worst and a colonia at best. Nelida, her four children and her husband are among about 350 families who reside atop the rural highland.

The story of Pajarito Mesa is as American as it gets one of people forging a homeland out of next to nothing.

But it’s also a Mexican-American tale; about 85 percent of the inhabitants are from Mexico or are of Mexican descent, residents estimate.

Each family some flung out on the mesa’s 22,000 acres and others huddled together in clusters has a different tale of moving to the dusty tabletop of land.

Some are undocumented immigrants whose families double or triple up in tiny trailers; others are city folk who got tired of the hustle and bustle, the bullets, the traffic.

Some own their land and homes. Others rent. Some stay with friends.

Many are happy to live in a place where Downtown Albuquerque is less than a speck on the horizon.

“I’d rather live here than in the city. I think it’s a lot safer for my kids, and they have a place to play, a place to go,” said Nelida Gonzalez, who for a time tried life in Albuquerque’s South Valley.

Others live here, seemingly decades from the lifestyle many Albuquerqueans enjoy, because it’s cheap.

The residents’ choice to live away from it all leaves Bernalillo County officials with a decision of their own: whether to evict some of the mesa’s residents, who they say essentially live here illegally.

County Manager Juan Vigil said that some parts of the mesa weren’t subdivided in accordance with zoning laws although other areas, some with single homes on 20 or more acres, do follow county zoning rules.

“That’s the dilemma,” Vigil said. “By enforcing our zoning ordinance, we could evict some of the residents. But we have to consider: Is that the right thing to do?”

The county, Vigil said, has known about Pajarito Mesa for about seven years. But as the area like other places at the edges of the city and county has grown, officials say they have been forced to consider doing something now to avoid larger problems in the future.

Already the county has fired a legal warning shot.

In the past two years, officials have posted signs in English and Spanish, informing would-be residents that they must have a set of proper permits for their mobile homes before moving to the mesa.

County officials say they could evict residents and red-tag trailers that don’t have the right paperwork, but so far they have been reluctant to do so. Instead, they say, they are trying to work with residents to bring them into compliance with county regulations.

In any case, some residents say it’s doubtful those alerts have stopped many people from coming. About 40 new families moved to the mesa over the past two years, residents said.

Officials also have met with residents to address their concerns about a lack of emergency services a major problem in a place where the nearest hospital is at least 15 miles away.

Clearly, bringing this community into the modern era will involve several layers of work. But things like paved roads needed to carry the trucks that would be used to install the services likely are years away, Vigil said.

In the meantime, and with more growth possible, the county will likely become responsible for more services here at a time when it’s already a struggle to provide fire protection and flood control in more populated areas like the South Valley and East Mountains.

“It’s been very difficult,” County Attorney Tito Chavez said. “We’re trying to balance wanting well-meaning people to live in that area with what our rules are.”

In many ways, the history of the mesa settlement is as complex as the series of lomas, cerros and arroyos that carve through it. It’s a complicated set of stories, different for nearly each settler in the various development pockets along the horizon.

While government planners and lawyers fret over the area’s past and future, many residents here are concerned with today. And while some say they’re happy with life on the mesa, even without the basics, others complain that, despite owning land and paying taxes, the county has done little to help them.

The situation has created uncertainty both for residents who want services and the county, which says it can’t do much until it has a better sense of how various lawsuits concerning land development and ownership will turn out.

This month, county officials are expected to receive the results of a $100,000 study trying to determine landownership and a more precise population count.

The study, started nearly two years ago, was also to look at where easements for utilities could be made.

Residents say they keep guarded hopes that the land history will be sorted out and they will get services.

To many elsewhere, the thought of difficult-to-obtain water, no sewer, no telephone and no ambulance service would be intolerable. But to understand the patience of the settlers here is to understand where they were before.

Living outside the wired world, Nelida Gonzalez says, is still better than what her family could have eked out in her native state of Chihuahua, Mexico.

“I don’t think we could have owned a home there,” she said in Spanish, looking out one of her two back windows at the arid terrain.

“It’s similar to Mexico. But we live better than that, especially with the money Joel can make.”

Joel, a meatcutter in the South Valley, earns $1,000 a month. Much of what isn’t spent on food for the six family members goes to payments on their $4,000, three-bedroom, brown and white mobile home.

It also goes to make their portion of the $18,000 land payment they split with other members of their family, who occupy two other trailers on the shared 2 1/2 acres.

Nelida works at home, spending nearly all of her time taking care of her four children. Or her sister’s three children. Or her neighbors’ children. Or all of them.

For the Gonzalezes, water comes from a well at the top of the mesa, dug less than a year ago.

Some of their neighbors in the area buy water in the city and truck it up the hill in buckets, tanks, whatever they can find.

While Joel works to keep his family’s generator full of gas to create power in their home, other homes run on solar energy.

For some, an outhouse is the bathroom. The Gonzalezes have their own septic tank.
Some residents use and reuse water, maybe at first to wash hands or clothes, and then to water plants.

It’s a simple life, although simple isn’t easy.

The Gonzalezes at least choose to see it as an adventure.

To get to this point, the Gonzalezes left their native Mexico in 1998 with a walk across the El Paso-Juarez border 260 miles to the south.

They had visas then, which have since expired.

“At first I didn’t want to go,” Nelida said of the mesa, a place her family had heard about from friends. “I thought, that’s not a life for kids.”

But after initially locating on the mesa and spending time with other families, she realized it could work.
“It seemed complicated,” she said. “But you get used to it. You figure out how it works.”

Making it work means sharing space with rattlesnakes and wild dog packs. Living among teens who drive up at night, looking for a remote place to party. Living among intermittent piles of trash, stacked tires, burnt cars and shot-out washing machines along the sagebrush. With coyotes and large beetles.
With little more than cracked flyswatters to get at the swarms of flies.

With neighbors who stop by to chat, for lack of much other entertainment.

Without a doctor.

Which was hard for Nelida Gonzalez when she became pregnant with her third child nearly two years ago.

For a time, the Gonzalezes decided to move out of the home they were sharing with another family on the mesa and into a South Valley apartment.

There they stayed until Luis, now 1 1/2 years old, and then Adrian, now 5 months, were born. But life in the valley although close to medical help and a more modern lifestyle wasn’t for them, Nelida said.

“Down there, he ran into traffic and almost got run over three times,” she said of 2 1/2-year-old Joel Jr.
“Then this one,” she said, pointing at her 8-year old daughter, Susana, “started talking about bank robberies, as if they were cool.
“I decided we needed to move back.”

So they returned to Pajarito Mesa with enough to make the first payment on a mobile home of their own.

That was just more than a month ago.

In a way, they are starting a different life, like many on the mesa. Again.

But this time, Nelida Gonzalez says, there is a difference.

“I don’t think,” she said, smiling and pulling back her long black hair, “we’re going back down there.”

Published Sept. 6, 2001